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Thursday, August 25, 2005 sometimes I sleep hard. The details are fuzzy. Last night I was in France and somehow ended up with valuable information regarding a crime against some seminary school children. This info was in the form of a book or a CD or something. Thus, me and the bad guy were both covertly looking for one another: me to crush him, and him to crush me and get the incriminating info back. It was tense. I approached the school headmaster with the info I had and he accused me of being involved with the crime against his students because otherwise how would I have such information. A battle ensued. Not a physical battle (unless you count yelling and running), but a battle nonetheless. The headmaster was an asshole. There was a lot more to it, but I forget if there was a conclusion. Then I was with some people on the top floor of a victorian house (in the U.S.) and there was a bad guy who "kidnapped" me and one of the dudes whom I was apparently hanging out with. He took us to the ground floor of the house and waited to receive the ransom he had asked for. There were 2 more people or so, not kidnapped, who were responsible for rescuing us. I got pissed at the kidnapper because he was only asking $150 ransom for me. The nerve! So insulting. Again, there was a lot more to it and I don't remember if there was a conclusion. I tried to scream, but no sound came out. This often happens. ![]() Linked, for your pleasure: Google Fight New Barra Libre website; unfinished, and courtesy of me. Thursday, August 11, 2005 Why the MTA gotta suck? Yesterday I was on a subway car that had about 6 other people in it. There was a man at the end, half asleep with his feet up on the seat next to him. The man was not a bum, the soles of his shoes were not on the seat per se, and he was not seat hogging because there weren't enough people that anyone would have wanted his second seat. Our train stops at a station. Doors open. Cop walks in. Cop looks at the guy, takes out his stick, and smacks the seat next to the guy. Guy opens eyes startled. Cop starts exiting the car and motions for the guy to follow. Guy follows. Doors close. Train continues. I wonder how much the guy got ticketed. Back when we were in high school, we used to do all sorts of crazy shit on the trains. Our favorite was to steal the ads, like those cool NYNEX ads (anyone remember 'steel wool': the sheep with the big magnet on top?) among others. Why the MTA gotta suck? Tuesday, August 09, 2005 think. Much of the reason so many things get screwed up is because people look at end results instead of at the hearts of issues. This pattern plagues everything from political to interpersonal issues. It's reactive rather than reflective. Judgements are made without seriously considering reasons why. There is no such thing as evil or crazy; the Christians and the cartoons have taught us all wrong. Occurrences are reactive. There are real problems to deal with, but the reactive, angry, complainey ones take the focus off the real things and make it about them. True assessments cannot be made based on limited or strictly intellectual knowledge, and nobody knows everything. Get some perspective. Life is short. We all want better things, and none of us live in vacuums. So get off your high horses of hyper-sensitivity and judgement, and really give a shit about the people and things you claim to give a shit about. Otherwise, shut the fuck up. There's enough real drama. Thank you very much. PS: Sorry for the few, far between and not so entertaining or positive words lately. I have little for that these days and I don't generally post the nitty gritty details of my life or the people in it here because it's not public information. Conceptual is sufficient for public consumption. For more fun and colorful content, check out the photos. ...but in light and amusing personal events, this month I get a funny shoutout in a national publication: Holly's featured in Teen Vogue and she apparently cites chasing me around the house with a wet washcloth (when we were kids), saying she was going to make me "nice and clean and beeeeeautiful." And refers to me as her "tomboy sister". Ha ha. Tuesday, August 02, 2005 systems of classifying, identifying, and catergorizing: elements and values (what I was thinking about while waking up this morning) Happy Birthday Meredith Parker. Elements The ancient Greeks established a system that includes four basic elements: Earth, Water, Fire, and Air. This is what is used in most of the astrology and numerology that we know. (This link is rather interesting, especially if you know the placement of all the planets or the balance of elements in your astrological chart.) The Hindus and Buddhists include five elements in their system, referred to in Sanskrit as Namasivaya (na = earth, ma = water, si = fire, va = wind, ya = sky). Still, other systems of considering the general elements of life view these things slightly differently. It seems that all of the schools of thought include Fire and Water, so perhaps these two can be considered the most essential of essential elements. The additional ones often include Earth, Air, Ether, Wind and/or Sky, but not always. Some other Eastern cultures recognize a different variation on 5 elements, being: Wood, Metal, Fire, Water and Air. It also seems that all systems recognize either 4 of 5 elements; no more, no less. The person who compiled this information lauds the significance of the number 5, and while much supporting evidence is cited, it seems to me that such significance could likely be found for all of the single digit numbers (perhaps the lower ones more so) if one looks hard enough. Values I strongly dislike the connotations that the word and concept of "values" have come to be associated with. First, personal values are largely believed to be associated with religion and God, and thus dictated to people by a source outside of themselves. How can personal values come from a construction separate from the individual and not from within? Even if there were to be a definitive system of values, it would not be honestly definitive unless each individual arrived upon it on their own. Secondly, the term "values" in this context, is not amply defined and narrowed down. For instance, at certain times I might claim that eating the food on the plate in front of me is my highest value because I am really really hungry. No. Hands down, the best way that I have been introduced to the concept of a system of values includes a broad but specific four: Freedom Love Truth To me this system of four seems quite universal, and anyone should be able to conceive of it, regardless of the specific beliefs that they hold. These four can be placed in any order, depending on the individual or circumstances, although it seems like certain trends exist when people place these 4 values in a hierarchical model through their actions and perceptions. For instance: in their actions many people often place Peace above the other 3 values because in the moment it is often easiest to avoid conflict/confrontation, etc. However, this is frequently a dishonest outlook, as real beliefs and feelings are being compromised in order to keep this momentary, topical peace. This ironically results in a lack of inner peace, and thus is not really peace at all. My favorites are Truth and Love.
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