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Wednesday, June 30, 2004 commentate me For those of you who watch a lot of those VH1/E!/MTV shows where editors and B-list celebrities comment on the topic du jour (the 80's, the worst songs ever, your mom, etc., Michael Musto's confessions of a soundbite whore is pretty fucking funny. planetary climate Reading astrology of the following kind, not geared towards any particular sign, seems to make the most sense. Thankfully Venus is not in retrograde anymore: It will take several days for Venus to gain any kind of daily speed. It's no longer retrograde, but not really going anywhere. What does help on artistic, romantic and financial levels is a subtle Sun-Venus 30-degree aspect. The Sun-Pallas conjunction is a blockbuster on intellectual and intuitive levels. This is the right time to join a think tank in society, battle for a social or humanitarian cause and stand up for the higher principles of knowledge, truth and wisdom. Any kind of advanced work in science, mathematics, psychology, holistic healing, astrology and metaphysics gains strength. The Moon remains in fiery, happy-go-lucky and ebullient Sagittarius with a key moment happening tonight during the monthly Moon-Pluto union. This is a time for inner discovery and enlightenment, but watch out for emotional tsunamis that sweep in without expectation. Stay sane, sober and safe overnight. Taking major risks of any kind is taboo. Friday, June 25, 2004 the mods would kill the hippies Last night was fabulous.               Everyone was truly awesome last night. Special thanks to all those who came out and to Sherry, Rae, KP and Catherine for some hot hula hoop action. Y'all are expected back next time. I'll write more later when my whole being is not so exhausted and hurting. Fun can be painful. I learned how to hula hoop with my legs. Wednesday, June 23, 2004 child warfare?  I've officially started work on the website for the Desmond Tutu Foundation and they sent me a bunch of pictures and things to use as design assets. One of these pics is the one to the right, which I'm posting because I find it creepy: it looks to me like a little girl clinging to her doll in a blood-spattered war zone. Does anyone see it differently?Friday, June 18, 2004 Tripping on Sunshine Yay! Colin is coming back for A Trip Inside next week!!! As is Sherry! I hope all of you come out. It's going to be SO FUN!!!  vindication is far from godliness jotted down in class last night: I am made to feel angry and vindictive when someone is in a position of authority over me but I do not feel that they are worthy of such power. This causes me to want to lash out and criticize meanly; one of the only situations where I ever feel anything like this. Thursday, June 17, 2004 moving watching working sleeping driving walking talking smiling I'm taking 2 classes which intensely analyze the thinking process but why do courses never teach you how to feel? baby fever is highly contagious First I find out Amanda's pregnant. Then, about a week later Katy tells me that she's pregnant too. About a month or 2 later Jeremy tells me that him and Soojin are also expecting. Then, yesterday, Manuela, whom I used to work with, tells me that she's also pregnant. Before this stint, I had no friends who are my explicit peers who had had or were having babies. Crazy. There must be something in the air. Or the water. Or something. Who's next? Tuesday, June 15, 2004 deadbirdidie Outside smoking a cigarette on the break during my class tonight, I absentmindedly leaned my hand on the building I was standing in front of and felt something squishy at the tip of my finger. I looked and it was this little baby dead bird. Surprising, obviously. Merry's email address used to be deadbirdidie@somethingoranother.com due to a situation where a dead bird came thwapping down in between her and another during a picnic, a bad omen in this particular case. I'm hoping tonight's discovery was of no such prophetic and poetic nature.   thoughts with no place for me, being in school is more of a formality than anything else. It feels like something which stunts the very thing it proposes to provide: knowledge and personal enrichment. Everyone is more interested in their stupid grades than anything else, and so few of them actually have the capacity to really think and most of them have very little prior knowledge of the things that I consider important (practical issues, political issues, philosophy, vocabulary...). Many of the professors are not much beyond the students in terms of posessing a breadth of knowledge and understanding beyond their own field (Iknowledge or understanding of any issue or topic does not alone. This is an interconnected world and the more things we know, the more we can understand other things). Most of them are trapped in the medoicre flow that they have grown used to from their course, semester after semester, and muddling through the coursework, completely unengaging, ultimately unconfident, often on some sort of power trip or with some manifest control issues. Only a tiny tiny tiny handful of the profs and students approach any inspirational quality. I wonder if this ratio is the same as exists all over this country; eg. if I could quantify the great and smart people and figure out the ratio of such folks to the rest of the population, would it be the same as what I'm experiencing? I love my friends. The people I choose to relate to (in any capacity) are some of the smartest, coolest, most awesome people ever, and I want you to know that I love you all very very much. You guys are all such a stark contrast to the average world which I manage to keep apart from most of the time. From now on, I will be more grateful every time I meet someone who is truly cool. What I do in class is draw intricate pictures, as I used to back in high school, but never in college courses before the recent semesters. Of course, I try to get what I can out of being in class, but really, it doesn't take my full, undivided attention. Drawing actually enables me to take in what is going on around me better because I don't zone out, staring into space. My consciousness remains present, although I may not be looking up and out. Last night's drawing (unfinished) actually resembles "something", rather than the usual, amorphous type things I usually draw.  Monday, June 14, 2004 jells and bars I'm currently reading The Bell Jar (among other books; lately I don't limit myself to one at a time)... and the other day I was on the subway platform reading it, and I looked down the tracks to see if a train was coming, and the last 50 or so pages of the book fell out and onto the tracks. Bah. Saturday, June 12, 2004 yeah baby Tune in. Drop Out. Get Down. after much time, focus, and pixel-naziing, check it! You are all SO going to be there. Thursday the 24th. Thursday, June 10, 2004 Amanda's baby from the expecting mom: "i went to see the berlin philharmonic last night.... baby red boots seemed to find dvorak very exciting because he was kicking a lot." ...of course a baby that belongs to Amanda and Gabe would be excited about music, even in utero. It's good to have this affirmation that it's their baby and not an alien impostor, implanted by some unknown, intergalactic, people-eating species. And now the sonogram pics I said I'd post:    Wednesday, June 09, 2004 unconscious I want to be one of those people who can sleep a whole lot; of the group of people who can sleep to escape or at least can sleep normally during crisis. I do generally operate pretty well on little sleep or food but I feel like it's making me age too quick. Then again, I got carded for cigarettes last week. Tuesday, June 08, 2004 string pulling from the heavens Something is happening today that hasn't occurred since 1882. This is an astronomical transit of the planet Venus across the disk of the Sun from the Earth's perspective! It happens as the Sun conjuncts Venus retrograde at 18 degrees of Gemini. This is considered an Inferior Conjunction of the Sun and Venus -- an event that can only happen when Venus is retrograde and between the Earth and Sun. We might term this a 'new Venus.' Stories will have undoubtedly appeared in science sections of newspapers or on TV during the last week or two about the transit of Venus across the face of the Sun. In addition, Venus will now be in 'morning star' formation -- rising ahead of the Sun -- for the next nine or so months. The Moon entering Pisces reminds you to reach out to the needy and disenfranchised. The monthly union with Uranus is likely to connect with topsy-turvy happenings. This will be even more extreme at 5:06PM PDT when Mercury in Gemini squares off with Uranus in Pisces. The usual manifestation of such a Mercury-Uranus battle is an increase in nervous strain, instability and anxiety. Watch where you are going and what you are doing. It's easy to go way off course and lose your sense of logic and direction. Get set for a wild and wacky ride over the next four days as planetary alignments go ballistic. This will be highlighted on June 10 as Uranus stops and goes retrograde for five months. Monday, June 07, 2004 the weekend in photos too many photos. I'm considering banning my camera from social events for awhile.          random thoughts The more records I buy, the more I want. There will never be an end to this. If anyone sees a copy of Donovan's 'Catch the Wind' for sale (on vinyl, of course), buy it for me and I'll pay you back. It shouldn't be more than $10. My copy is decrepit. I cannot even begin to imagine being non-orgasmic. I haven't left my apartment today but it's very clean in here. If I made a mix of all the songs that touch me most, would they lose their power? I think probably. Venus is retrograde right now which means that matters of love are all fucked up. We are all advised to wait a month before making any big decisions in this area. Also there's been a bunch of eclipses lately which have thrown a cog in the wheel of our not-so-finely-tuned universe. german and black New worthy sentiment from Sherry after listning to records all day yesterday: Kraftwerk is like black because you can mix it well with anything. We need a new shower curtain here. It looks nice outside but I'm so drained with work to do. I am behind on many things in a way where I know that I will never truly catch up, but instead shift things according to priority and remain somewhat behind for the rest of my existence. Thursday, June 03, 2004 today in sucky events well, not everyting is sucky, but certain items... I've been having nightmares which I remember almost every single night. Both nightmares and remembering my dreams constantly are rarities. I don't wake up in the middle of the night with these dreams but I remember them acutely each morning and I lay in bed trying to hang onto the details and think about how the dream relates to my current life and situation. And last night I had a dream that the Manhattan Bridge was under major construction to the point where there were narrow rafters and other such supports rather than solid ground all across the length of the bridge. For reasons I don't remember, I had to cross the bridge several times, balancing on these narrow beams, grasping onto anything I could, seeing the water far below through the huge, gaping holes in the structure. I made it across safely each time but not without lots of fear and a few near falls. The good news Our 'A Trip Inside' gig was finally given 2 dates at Pianos! The last Thursday of June and July so far. Hula hoopers, psychedelic films, awesome music, dancing (Pianos recently got their cabaret liscence!!!), booze, and more. It should be a trip. Literally. And Holly and I are on for this Saturday at Babinga which should also be a lot of fun. I've been buying records like crazy lately. Yesterday I picked up a japanese pressing of the Monkee's "Head". Great album which I have never seen for sale before. Yay! Tuesday, June 01, 2004 bj I can't be friends with people who like Billy Joel (unless they're Matt who can sing Billy Joel songs and make them sound better than Billy Joel does) (or unless they're Tony, because I forgive simply because he's Tony) vinyl and philadelphia We went record digging in Philly this weekend and I got a good pic while I was waiting in the car big, glowing, scary city of lights New Jersey industrial complex on the drive home and reorganized vinyl now fits better in it's limited space.    dirges suck Whenever there is a funeral for me, I want this song to be played: Grandaddy- Egg Hit and Jack Too (edit) (downloadable for a limited time... until I need to clear space on my server. I had to edit out the beginning of the song which doesn't even sound like the same song) I'm sure I can select many more songs that should be heard at my funeral too but perhaps this should be the last one played. Or maybe the should go out with a bang instead. In any case, it's both fun and creepy to indulge myself by considering these things.
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